It's been so long since I have written in this journal. It's mostly my fault, throught. After i wrote my last entry in January, I think, I've became so busy that I was hardly online long enough to write. So much had happened since then, that I don't know where to start. Well, I know one thing I should mention. I had my second baby on August 11th, at 6:23 AM. Jeremy Isaac 5 lbs 10 ozs My life has changed so much since then. Everyone kept telling me it would be so hard with two babies, that I was hardly going to have time for myself. But I think their wrong. Ever since I had Jeremy, it's actually been easier then I thought. Some moments have been hard, but I've gotten used to the fact that I have two babies now. Derek is now 18 months old. Where have the months gone? It seems like just yesterday, he was lying in my arms in the hospital. He's running(through he's still a little unsteady), walking, talking, all the stuff I never imagined would come so soon. He's growing up so fast. I'm now getting the on subject that I've been avoiding for the past 8 months. Jacob and I separated in late February. We're not getting a divorce, through it'll probably happen sooner or later, but things...things got so hard and so complicated, and it was a mutual decision to separate. I'm not going into any details, since they are very privatem but let's just say that....it wasn't mostly mt fault, that some of the blame was on his part, too. But things have been okay since then. He's still a big part of my life, with Derek and Jeremy, and he's involved in their life as much as he can. All my friends keep telling me that I should get back into the dating world, but right now...I just want to concentrate on my boys and myself. I'm probably not going to be dating for the next few years, because I want my boys to be much older before I get involved with someone else. I'm going to end this. I can hear Derek babbling in the living room. Until I write again.