It's been so long since I have written in this journal. It's mostly my fault, throught. After i wrote my last entry in January, I think, I've became so busy that I was hardly online long enough to write. So much had happened since then, that I don't know where to start. Well, I know one thing I should mention. I had my second baby on August 11th, at 6:23 AM. Jeremy Isaac 5 lbs 10 ozs My life has changed so much since then. Everyone kept telling me it would be so hard with two babies, that I was hardly going to have time for myself. But I think their wrong. Ever since I had Jeremy, it's actually been easier then I thought. Some moments have been hard, but I've gotten used to the fact that I have two babies now. Derek is now 18 months old. Where have the months gone? It seems like just yesterday, he was lying in my arms in the hospital. He's running(through he's still a little unsteady), walking, talking, all the stuff I never imagined would come so soon. He's growing up so fast. I'm now getting the on subject that I've been avoiding for the past 8 months. Jacob and I separated in late February. We're not getting a divorce, through it'll probably happen sooner or later, but things...things got so hard and so complicated, and it was a mutual decision to separate. I'm not going into any details, since they are very privatem but let's just say that....it wasn't mostly mt fault, that some of the blame was on his part, too. But things have been okay since then. He's still a big part of my life, with Derek and Jeremy, and he's involved in their life as much as he can. All my friends keep telling me that I should get back into the dating world, but right now...I just want to concentrate on my boys and myself. I'm probably not going to be dating for the next few years, because I want my boys to be much older before I get involved with someone else. I'm going to end this. I can hear Derek babbling in the living room. Until I write again.

Been so long since I wrote in here. Things have been...well...hectic around here ever since Derek was born. He's now 9 months old (as of today!) and I'm loving every moment of being a mom. It's fantastic to see this little boy grow up into a young man someday. We weren't planning on having any more kids, but on December 29th, I found out I was pregant again, so I'm about a month along. I went to the doctor's on Monday and I'm due in the middle of September, sometime around the 18th or 19th. We're looking forward to this one. =) This is going to be short since this is one of the first snowstorm of the year and I want to take Derek out and see how he reacts to snow.

Derek Nathaniel Conners

6 weeks old this week.

I can't believe how fast the time has flown. It feels like just yesterday I was holding him for the first time. I can't believe 6 weeks has already gone by so fast.

He's grown so much. It's still kinda small (well, that's what the doctor says) but I think he's just perfect. I look at him every night and watch him sleep. It's so overwhelming knowing that he's a part of me, that he's my son now.

Beside's that, everything is going good. Jacob just went back to work today but I decided not to go back to work. I was supposed to return on May 25th, but I told them no. I want to be with my son.

We're getting custody of my husband's son from his first marriage. His name is Nicholas Zachery and he's 9 years old. This is only going to be 3rd time I met him. The custody papers are still being done but he should be here by the middle of June.

I better go. Derek is just waking up and I have so much more to do.

See ya next time I write!

Derek Nathaniel Conners
Born April 6th, 2004 at 3:48 AM
8 lbs, 7 ozs
19 inches

The family is resting and Kathryn said she'll post when she gets home on Thursay. =)

Sorry I haven't posted in the last couple of weeks. Things have been....hectic lately. I'm not going into detail just yet, since it's not all worked all yet.

I'm almost 8 months pregnant and doing really good. I went to the doctor's on the 16th, and he said to expect him around the middle of April so that's good.

Okay, you know what? I'm going to tell you the news. =)

First of all, around the middle of last month, we went house-hunting and found this perfect house just outside of town. A 2-story with 4 bedrooms and 2 baths. It was just...perfect. Well, after a couple of weeks of talking to our realtor and working out the details, we bought the house!!! It was a little bit out of our price-range but we got what we wanted and we're happy.

Well, I better go. Jacob is coming home early and we're going up to visit his parents til Wednesday. I can't wait to see them =)

Bye!

I finally found a spare moment to post and to say that I'm doing okay. Things have just been...hactic lately. I'll get into more detail later. I just wanted to tell everyone tht everything is okay and we're doing just fine.

I have a doctor's appointment this morning and our baby boy is doing just fine. I'm measuring in just fine and I can't wait til April for him to get here. =)

I better get going. Jacob is supposed to be calling me to see if I want to order something for dinner and my favorite show is coming on now. lol

Write more soon. =)

Just got online real quick to tell you that I'm doing fine but I'm really busy. I'm finally 30 weeks pregnant so ony 10 more weeks =)

Everything is doing okay and I appricate all the email I've been getting, asking how I was.

I'm not going to be online much til probably the beginning of March since there is so much going on. I'll tell you about when I get the chance. =)

Well, it's been awhile. I haven't been on the computer since the last time I wrote! Which, was on the 15th or 16th, I don't remember exactly.

Things are doing okay around here. I'm still pregnant and loving it! Um...Jacob just got back from his trip and won't be going on another one til July! Yay!

Anyway, this is going to have to be short. I'm in rush because my family is coming up here for dinner and I still have to clean!

I'll post sometime during the week since there's nothing going on now.

Things have been improving the last few days. Jacob and me talked a lot and we decided that he was going to talk to his boss to see if he could not travel so much. I'm so glad. He still has to go on the trip to Maryland but his boss did say that he'll only have to take 5 trips a year, so that's good.

I went to the doctos's yesterday morning because I wasn't feeling that good. I got to see my baby boy again =) Yay! He measured my urtherus and adjusted my due date a bit. (He said I measuring it on 25 wks, 5 days, so that really changes everything.) My due date is now April 24th, so that REALLY changes everything. No wonder I'm was so big. I thought I was having twins or something. lol

Anyway, Jacob is more then excting that the due date is in April because his birthday is April 27th, and he wanted his son to be born on the same date, so there we go.

So...what else has been going on?

Um....

I really got to be more exciting on this journal, lol.

My best friend Morgon is coming in to visit this weekend. She's bringing her 2 kids. *Sigh* Things are going to be noisy for awhile. (She has a 4 year old and 29 month old)

Okay, I'm going to share something that I never talked about before on here so here goes.

Before Jacob met me, he used to be married when he was 20. His ex-wife got pregnant when they were 21 and Jacob has another son, named Nicholas. (He's 8 years old now) Well, lately there's been some problems going on.

I'm not going to get into them here but it involes Jake wanted to see his son and the ex-wife won't let him, even through he has visition rights for two weekends a month.

*Sigh*

I better get going. I wanna start dinner and then watch a movie. New episode of Friends is on, hehe.

I'll write the next time I get the chance.

Just a quick entry before I get into the shower. We got home late last night from Boston and we had a really good time. I know I said I was going to post while I was there, but the computer there wouldn't turn on and I didn't want to use my brother's other computer.